Stories from the Lateral - a Healers Journey
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    • 1 Life interrupted
    • 2 If you dream your life...
    • 3 Ode to memories
    • 4 Sitting on the lateral... literally
    • 5 Disease doesn't hang out in the brain
    • 6 Dia de muertos
    • 7 Face it head on!
    • 8 Someone Asked Me
    • 9 Am I more spiritual if...
    • 10 Love vs intelligence?
    • 11 Charity wrapped in dignity
    • 12 Being Strong Women
    • 13 How do you stop overthinking "it"?
    • 14 Ode to parrot head lyrics
    • 15 Embracing our changes
    • 16 Being called crazy
    • 17 Listening - tellings - do it
    • 18 Journeys end... or not
    • 19 The Merida journey - Little lives
    • 20 The Merida journey - Not so little Deaths
    • 21 Beyond the comfort zone
    • 22 Daddy
    • 23 Loss in the time of Covid
    • 24 Relationship Canyons
    • 25 Gone or just beyond
    • 26 Mind evolution
    • 27 You never know who will show up
    • 28 The Dichotomy of Perceptions
  • The Amputation Journey
    • How did it come to this?
    • Shattered to Pieces or Peace?
    • The return lo the Medicine Woman
    • Pink Lemonade
  • Just the responses
    • 1 Loss: What is more tragic?
  • 2 Loosing Fear - the Q
  • Persaverance
  • Main
  • My Beginning y mas
    • In the Beginning - I died
    • Hollow Hallowed Ground - An Open Letter to family
  • Snippets From Time
    • 1 Life interrupted
    • 2 If you dream your life...
    • 3 Ode to memories
    • 4 Sitting on the lateral... literally
    • 5 Disease doesn't hang out in the brain
    • 6 Dia de muertos
    • 7 Face it head on!
    • 8 Someone Asked Me
    • 9 Am I more spiritual if...
    • 10 Love vs intelligence?
    • 11 Charity wrapped in dignity
    • 12 Being Strong Women
    • 13 How do you stop overthinking "it"?
    • 14 Ode to parrot head lyrics
    • 15 Embracing our changes
    • 16 Being called crazy
    • 17 Listening - tellings - do it
    • 18 Journeys end... or not
    • 19 The Merida journey - Little lives
    • 20 The Merida journey - Not so little Deaths
    • 21 Beyond the comfort zone
    • 22 Daddy
    • 23 Loss in the time of Covid
    • 24 Relationship Canyons
    • 25 Gone or just beyond
    • 26 Mind evolution
    • 27 You never know who will show up
    • 28 The Dichotomy of Perceptions
  • The Amputation Journey
    • How did it come to this?
    • Shattered to Pieces or Peace?
    • The return lo the Medicine Woman
    • Pink Lemonade
  • Just the responses
    • 1 Loss: What is more tragic?
  • 2 Loosing Fear - the Q
  • Persaverance
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Hollow Hallowed Ground -
An Open Letter to family

When your idea of hallowed ground - is really hollow grounds of love rejected into dust
When your voice says one thing - but your heart/soul do not move in concerted action
When you're actions speak volumes, chapters and verse

When family means
"those to whom I do not speak
"Those to whom I do not listen
"Those with whom I choose to forget the connection
"Those I refuse to accept
"Those I'm afraid can see my secrets
"Those that reject you for being different or "difficult"

Oh how I wish ...
But wishes are words without intentional action
I dream that one day ...
Today I blow breath into the dream - giving it life - motivation - impetus to create a condition where the 'wish' has room to become action.
Talk to me siblings - if you dare
Share your life and memories - but remember I will continue to be a mirror of your true internal self.
Ah -- there it is.
The crux of the issue.
I will not bow to your hallowed hollow memories
I will be vocal in moving my heart and soul into action
I will, as always, be willing to hear you
I will never forget the connection - even if I remove it from my life as a toxin
I will never refuse to acknowledge you
I will always love you - even if I do not respect or like you
I will accept you - as everyone else - in your differences
I will never be afraid to show you my secrets - even if you try to turn them against me. After all - when it's no longer a secret - it's no longer a weapon.
I will continue to wish
I will continue to dream
I will speak into the Universe with Hope, Hunger and Honesty
Oh that you can hear before it's too late to make manifest action.

I'm right here -
Medicine woman of the Open Heart - but not the bound soul.
Medicine Woman (yes really), Healer, Sister, Teacher, Mother, Wife
The Waiting One... but I wait in ACTION not stillness
The Moving Water...
The Breeze against your hearts strings if you but listen for the music.

The Sister you forgot ...

~2016

Footnote June 2021: I think this needed a little more perspective.  This was written after the death of our mother.  As I watched at her memorial the dynamic play out of denial, refusal, rejection, the rise of their self importance.   And I knew that that it would probably be the last time I'd see any of them.  Not because I didn't want it - but because to them - I don't exist. 
Their worlds can't accept what mine is.  And at this junction, I've made mostly my peace with that.  Though the longing for connection still whispers across my soul occasionally. I know also, that I'm not willing on any level, to allow back into my life the level of toxicity that they'd bring.
So to each I bow in humble thanks - for what you taught me in our long years apart and our few together.   As I've watched your dances unfold and had to say "Yeah - no thanks".  I know your secrets - and I don't care.  Your actions speak louder than your secrets do - and you don't get it.  
Farewell siblings of birth - I'm here - but.
Copyright © 2022
  • Main
  • My Beginning y mas
    • In the Beginning - I died
    • Hollow Hallowed Ground - An Open Letter to family
  • Snippets From Time
    • 1 Life interrupted
    • 2 If you dream your life...
    • 3 Ode to memories
    • 4 Sitting on the lateral... literally
    • 5 Disease doesn't hang out in the brain
    • 6 Dia de muertos
    • 7 Face it head on!
    • 8 Someone Asked Me
    • 9 Am I more spiritual if...
    • 10 Love vs intelligence?
    • 11 Charity wrapped in dignity
    • 12 Being Strong Women
    • 13 How do you stop overthinking "it"?
    • 14 Ode to parrot head lyrics
    • 15 Embracing our changes
    • 16 Being called crazy
    • 17 Listening - tellings - do it
    • 18 Journeys end... or not
    • 19 The Merida journey - Little lives
    • 20 The Merida journey - Not so little Deaths
    • 21 Beyond the comfort zone
    • 22 Daddy
    • 23 Loss in the time of Covid
    • 24 Relationship Canyons
    • 25 Gone or just beyond
    • 26 Mind evolution
    • 27 You never know who will show up
    • 28 The Dichotomy of Perceptions
  • The Amputation Journey
    • How did it come to this?
    • Shattered to Pieces or Peace?
    • The return lo the Medicine Woman
    • Pink Lemonade
  • Just the responses
    • 1 Loss: What is more tragic?
  • 2 Loosing Fear - the Q
  • Persaverance